Have you ever felt overwhelmed?
As we grow older the responsibilities, pressure, and demands from our society cause a great impacton our day to day-to-day life.
A few years ago, I was sent to a mental health facility. You may ask why.
It was in those days that I couldn’t explain what was going on with myself. I couldn’t tell what I feel and if someone would ask me what I feel the only response I made was to cry. No words came outof my mouth. My mind was blank, so I started to seek God searching for His presence. I couldn't feel Him. So, sadness and anxiety had stricken me. And my mom took the courage to take me to the hospital as advised by her folks.
The miracle pain on a wheelchair
I was confined at the emergency room, sitting on the wheel chair on my first night. When I'm about to eat soup it accidentally spilled on my legs, that really hurt. The moment the hot soup landed on my skin, it hit me that I was alive!I am still alive! I rushed at the bathroom to rinse it with water but it was so painful that in a scale of 1 to 10 I would say 10.
Then I was transferred to a certain ward at the hospital where nurses and a doctor took good care of me. They were all very kind. When I was a kid, I used to be happy when I was sick because I get to eat a lot of food, but at the facility, I still felt nothing.
Breakthrough with tears.
On the second day at the facility, a nurse called me and asked me about the root cause of what I was feeling. She asked a lot of question and I couldn’t forget that I just stared at her blankly as she was waiting for my response. My mouth failed to utter a word as I burst into tears instead. I cried so hard until my eyes hurt. Then a breakthrough came as I finally slowly I told her everything that caused my pain.
My life became more colorful.
By the grace of God, I got better each day. I engaged to recreational activities. We danced every morning and activities in the afternoon. I started to have full of hope every day. I became the best version of myself in a way that I could share and express my thoughts. The world which was once dark I could now clearly see with God’s light.
I was so delighted as I was slowly going back on track. Positive thoughts filled my mind. Every day, as I awake, I thanked God. I also greeted every person in the facility as I put a big smile.
My mom is the best. I thank God for I have her as my precious gift. She never left me in those seasons and always took good care of me.
To a better and brighter future with God
Since I was doing better each day, the doctor decided to discharge me. My sister helped during the process of my exit. As I leave that room, I left my handprint on the wall. All the kind staffs of that facility will forever have a special place in my heart. It was now time to go home and I was so excited to see my family. And every neighbor I passed by, I thanked them and they were glad I was better.
I realized that what the Bible says in Romans chapter 8, verse 35 to 38 is true:
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, “For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.”Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, noe depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Whatever you may be going through right now, you may feel like you are drowning but know that God will always rescue you as He had rescued me. Nothing can separate you from His love.
Jo-an Rabor Rosal currently resides at Purok Tinagong Paraiso Brgy. Banago Bacolod City. I am a working student and bread winner of the family. I'm the kind of person that like travelling with my friends. I am a survivor of depression. Thanks, and Glory to our God as I enjoy my life right now.