As I browsed the social media, Up and down I saw everyone was so happy wearing their toga. Parents put big smiles on their faces and their eyes were shining and proud that finally their kids will graduate.
Just a happy kid
When I was in primary school my life as a student was so happy. After class, we just play like normal kids do. From 1st grade up until 5th grade my eyes were able to see things clearly. I can see the writings on the board. I can read a sentence when a teacher asks. I know you have experienced that too! I'm cooperative when it comes to recitation and other school activities.
It seems to be blurry
Upon stepping into sixth grade, my entire life changed. I felt sad and confused. Why can't I read the writing in the flash cards? I asked myself. What's happening with my eyes? I was really anxious at that moment. I really can't believe that my eyes can't see clearly. It was so blurred that literally I couldn't read a word. I was stuttered while looking at the Math Problem that my teacher asked me to read.
I just told her, "I'm sorry ma'am but I can't see clearly" and she just replied "Why? You’re already here in front" and she just said I'll sit down and asked another student to do the task. I was disappointed! Bunch of Why's came to my mind. My vision went blurred. I don't know why.
My amazing journey started...
My routine has changed. Instead of looking at the blackboard if we need to copy something, my eyes were on my classmate's notes. Following every word he wrote. Sometimes I get confused by the words he wrote. It was challenging right? the hardest challenge for me is during the test as I was accused of cheating but I do not. Sadly, I experienced that, every day that's my routine but I thanked the good Lord for I was still able to finish my Primary school. God is so amazing. Indeed.
God is able
It was enrollment for High School, and there my anxious mind struck me again. I am so excited for another journey. I am so excited! I know you felt the same back then! Opening of classes started. Opening ceremony is a usual thing.
Students were very excited too. I looked for my Section and when I finally saw it I entered the room happily. Every first day of class, Please introduce yourself is the most challenging part. You’re kind of "Shy" to say a word.
Do you still remember what you said during your turn? I stuttered and barely uttered a single word. Finally I was able to spill my name and brief bio. First Day of class was so exhausting. I was tired. Class dismissed. In the following days, I felt so hopeless. My vision is still unclear.
During the writing activity, I felt sad I cannot see the writings on the board still but God really sent an angel. I confidently told my seat mate that If I can just follow and copy her writings I explained to her that I cannot see the writings on the board clearly.
Thankfully her response melted my heart, "Yes you can" I thanked her. She's a blessing. Thank God. From 1st year high school until 4th year that was an amazing experience. My eyes were not able to see clearly but it's pretty clear that God is able to send people in my life to understand my situation and be very patient with me.
As I look back to that High School life. Yes my vision was unclear but I felt and my young self was able to witness the Greatness of God. I have graduated from that school and it's because of God. God is the one who sustains, guides and gives me courage and strength. God is so good. God is always with us. Wherever we are in our lives, God is with us. God is a miracle worker.
God is a promise keeper. Philippians chapter 4, verse 13 says, "I can do all things through Christ which strengthened me".
All things are possible with God. He is an Almighty God. As I look back to that experience truly God gave me strength to face the challenge every day. God told me: I am here. I will not leave you. I have amazing plans for you.
He is the reason why I'm still here. As what St. Mark chapter 10, verse 27 says, and Jesus looking upon them saith, with men it is impossible, but not with God: for with God all things are possible. If we think of the circumstances we face in our day- to-day life. We must always remember whom we served.
All things are possible with him. He is an everlasting God. God is able to change every bad situation. Whatever you're going through right now our God is powerful to give you what you need. It requires us to put our trust in him. God is in control. He has plans for each of us. Highest glory to God.
Jo-an Rabor Rosal currently resides at Purok Tinagong Paraiso Brgy. Banago Bacolod City. I am a working student and bread winner of the family. I'm the kind of person that like travelling with my friends. I am a survivor of depression. Thanks, and Glory to our God as I enjoy my life right now.